Today I completed counselling and I can definitely say that I am feeling happier than I have done in at least half a year. With my depression I ate a lot and consequently put on some weight so I am cycling it off and eating some kale to combat this! I definitely think exercise is contributing to my mood. I also think having this blog to write down my thoughts is a massive help. I wanted to take this time to thank everyone who supported my last post as that, for me, was a milestone in my life. It was a post I had always wanted to make however I knew if I typed all that when I was really ill it would’ve made my mood drop. I was waiting for my recovery that I had been wanting and working so hard for. I am on this long road of recovery and I am feeling fragile yet more able to cope. I have realised more than ever how powerful the mind is and how much you can change your mind set with the right help and your own inner strength. I tend to hop on the bike when I wake up and feel low as it really helps to get my day off to a positive start. I may document my bad blind days in the future but at least I am now equips with with methods of getting myself out of low mind sets. Hopefully I will never have to deal with depression again! The statistics for people developing depression are significantly higher than if you aren’t coping with blindness. I feel that this is a massive oversight when helping people cope. I feel there needs to be physical help for the lack of mobility side of blindness and also the mental grief and loss you experience at the same time. In my next few videos on my YouTube channel I will be covering aspects of my life that lead me to have clinical depression as low self esteem definitely contributed to my mental state. I will never stop having a voice! The past happened and I will always reflect in order to help others that may be in the situation I was in when I was a young teenager. There is always strength in telling your story and I will always believe this. Never let anyone tell you that you are anything but perfect otherwise they are really not worth your time! I have worked through my past in counselling and I can finally say it doesn’t effect me anymore! It is so liberating.
Click the link below as I have expressed feelings about my past that I am now not affected by because of my recent counselling.